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by Sammy-Matthew-Allan-St.Jimmy-DeLonge (sammy_delonge)
at December 27th, 2011 (03:34 am)
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current location: Laying in my chair in the living room at 3:33 in the morning
i feel: In love
jamming to: None

"No , please, no more..." I said as I was given a punch to the face," Mark...stop!please!" 
"Shut up Tom, you deserve this, you're a little whore, a fag, a cheater!"
" I never cheated on you!.... Travis only hugged me because I was alone and you were not around," I said. Mark had been hitting me to make his point , but now he did It for fun.
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" Don't you even care about me anymore!?" I yelled at Mark. He stood there giving me a dirty look then out of nowhere he slapped me . I was shocked  but quickly let out a wail and started to tear up.
"Tom ! I'm so, so, so sorry!" Mark said. We had been in an argument then he just up and hit me , but then he apologized and,like a fool, i accepted it . Mark had never hit me before, so it just seemed as if it was only an accident. 
Within a few days he had already beat me unconscious. He had started to hit me to make is point. Lead, to make it the only opinion that mattered. It was unfair. I never did anything to him. Now he just walks up to me and hits me, that's how he acknowladges me every morning.
He thinks I'm cheating on him, with Travis... Travis isn't gay , not even bi , he's just a good friend. I was really sad because Mark had been gone on a small trip for a few days , even if he did hit me I still loved him. Travis saw how sad I was and hugged me, right when that happened , Mark happened to be walking through the front door. He acussed me of cheating and beat me. Mark was controlling and never let me see any of my friends. Only Travis . But I just lost that ... My only friend. But I was e itex , Mark was this time, ever so kind as to let me tour with my band Angels and Airwaves.
I was a total kiss up to Mark from the start, which , at that time didn't matter, but now , it was the 
most important thing. If I did something wrong or talked too much of the guys, he would take away my chance of escape for a while. He'd cancel the tour.
"thank you Mark ," I said. I kissed him on the cheek but he was too busy into his newspaper to respond to it. " I love you,Mark"

I never knew how much I woulda missed Mark , even if he did hurt me. I didn't feel the same to wake up in a bed alone without someone beside you. After this, I went to Atom for help. I knew he adored me, so, why not? Little did I know that David was Mark's secret eye . He kept watch over Atom and I every time we were together. I could feel a new relationship with Atom , I knew that if Mark ever found out I had a strong friendship with other people , he'd smack some "sense" into me. 
As soon as I got home , I regretted every footstep closer to the front door. As soon as I walked through the door I got slapped by Mark.
"Did you really think you could get away with cheating on me!?" he snarled.
"What are you talking about?!" I said
" Thanks to David , I know what you've been doing. You're a cheater Tom, you're a useless waste of oxygen!" he growled.
 He grabbed me by the skin on the back of my neck like a small dog and carried me upstairs. He threw me into the guest bedroom and walked in after me. It was dark in here , no light, it scared me. Mark was the reason I was afraid of the dark


The past three months I have been sick. I've thrown up everyday and have lost 20 pounds. I was 40 pounds under weight but I was starting to gain some weight back even tho I couldn't eat without vomiting.
I was now hunched over the toilet giving up my lunch. David rubbed my back in small circles to calm me. Mark was gone again for another trip and left David to watch over me and the house because he thinks I will cheat on him. 
My lunch was long gone and all that was left spewing out of my mouth was the yellow stomach acid. It burned my insides and my throat and mouth. It tasted foul. Several tears slipped from my eyes as I cried .
"Shh it's alright , Tom. You'll be okay" David said trying to sooth me. I didn't want David here , I wanted Mark, the one who cares for me and is over protective in a good way not a psychotic one. But all I had was David , I wish he'd just die tho.
"d.... David... C...call Mark" I whispered barley able to speak.
"Tom , you'll be fine ," he said. 
" I wanna t-t-t....talk to Mark!" I said siting up. 
He let out a sigh then picked up his phone , he dialed Marks number then put it on speaker. 
" Hello?" 
It was a relief to hear his voice , even if it was over the phone. 
" Oh  hi Mark," David said.
"is there a problem? Is Tom giving you trouble?"
"no"
"then why did you call me?"
"Tom is dying to talk to you... He needs you, and now" 
"Maaaark" I said out loud.
"Tom , you sound like something that is dying..."
"Mark, please, come home...please" I begged. He was quiet for a while 
"Fine, but only cause I wanna go home already," he said," I'll catch the next flight home."
With that the conversation ended . When Mark got home, David greeted him at the door. I stayed in the restroom, I had puked again. I felt misrable.
"hey, you little faggot, maybe I should put you out of your misery!" mark said. He kicked me in the ribs.
"ow!" I cried out. I looked up at him with sad eyes...
MARK'S POIN OF VEIW
Tom looked up at me with sad misrable eyes after I kicked him... Poor Tom, what have I done to you.
I made it final that I would take him a his doctor Tomorrow.